Life changes. That is inevitable. So many people fear change and, on many occasions, I have also feared it depending on what that change was. I think it’s more of the unknown than the actual change itself.
I’m currently going through another change. This is a big life one. With big life changes, you can actually go through the emotional experiences of death/grief. Shock, denial, pain, bargaining, anger, depression and acceptance. I went through ALL of the stages the past two years and I am finally in the acceptance stage. Believe me when I say it was one of the most painful experiences of my life.
Part of the change that I went through was losing my “job” as an author. Many people labeled me as a “conservative” and marketing agencies have shadow banned my books and claim that my latest YA series encourages uprising. The series, “End of Crows”, was actually written before 2020, is the same genre of “Hunger Games” and was supposed to premier at the Denver ComiCon. I’ve gone through the gambit of the emotions when this happened and realize you can’t show the truth to those who are close-minded and ignorant. They are going to believe what they want to believe, despite the facts that disprove their arguments.
My acceptance is that I may never be able to be a full-time author again and that acceptance led to wondering what my purpose was. What was I supposed to do? I did a lot of soul searching, meditation, conversations with friends and it suddenly became clear. I need to share MY life experiences with others who are like-minded. Life is supposed to be about health, happiness, love, family, friends, JOY. So that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to share my experiences that have opened my eyes up to the true joy that is being covered up RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES.
The process is going to be painful, as change always is. But I promise if you stick with me, reach out if you hit a bump or struggle, we can work this through together. When I opened my life up to the true joy of this life, I lost almost 100 lbs, got off all of my medical prescriptions, eliminated my allergies, and eliminated about 95% of my arthritis pain.
I will try and post weekly as time allows. Since my book royalties have dwindled to almost non-existent, I’m now working in an office so my “free-time” is more limited.
In the meantime, stay smart, stay safe and stay blessed!