Archive | February 2012

Life’s blessings, big and small

We all have our struggles in life, our up’s and down’s, our in’s and out’s. But how many of us really stop to acknowledge the blessings? I’m not talking about the lottery winner, the day we met the love’s of our life, the day our children were born or the promotion we had been praying for. I’m talking about the small ones that tend to get overlooked, the ones that happen to us everyday. I’m here to admit I have lost sight of my little blessings but was greatly reminded of them today.

I have been so busy with my daughter’s upcoming surgery, getting my lesson plans done for my sub, getting our household packed for our upcoming move while keeping up with the daily things in life. Money has been oh, so very tight, with medical bills, prescriptions, deposits, and I just couldn’t understand why my family and I were struggling so hard when there were so many others that seemed to be doing just fine. I’ve always tried to live a positive, loving and when we could, giving life so why the hardships going on right now? Why? Why? Why?

I’ve worried about never becoming a best-seller, never becoming financially wealthy, never having one of my books made into a movie. Never during this time was I ever just silent. I kept asking questions but was never still enough to listen to the answer and it was right there, glaring back at me. I’ve been worrying about the wrong things in my life. Would it really matter if I was a best seller if I didn’t have my family? Would I enjoy my book being made into a movie if I didn’t have my friends to share it with? No, I honestly wouldn’t. And this past week has shown me how rich I am, how blessed. I have had so many of my friends offer to help us move when the time comes. My husband, though he is working outrageous hours, has been helping me clean the house, cook suppers and pack the house. My girls come up to me, hug me and tell me that they love me so much that they could never imagine having a better mom. As my daughter has told me, it’s better to fill someone’s good feeling bucket because it will come back around and fill your bucket. My amazing friends on Facebook and the Master Koda group has filled my bucket and though I have not had very much time to spend with them, they tell me that they think of me and praying for my daughter before her surgery.

I apologize for the ramblings and all over the place but once I stopped and was silent, the blessings in my life appeared everywhere and I guess that’s just what I am trying to share with you today. If you don’t see anything amazing in your life right now, be silent, be still and hopefully they will become as apparent as they had for me.

I will be out for a while, taking care of my Ashlie but be good to yourselves and to others and remember, life is meant to be fun, enjoy the journey!

Love & Life

As we all know, today is a day that red, pink and white are everywhere we turn. The air is filled with the fragrance of flowers and chocolate and stuffed animals are bounding off to their new homes. Advertisers make their focus on the love and romance between partners but don’t they realize that for many of us, we have more than one love?

As a mother of a 5 and 7 year-old little girls, I have found a love so pure, so deep and on a completely different level than I had ever imagined. This was surprising for me because for the first thirty-two years of my life, I was sure I never wanted children. I knew and had been told that I would never be a good mother, I was too focused on myself and wouldn’t be nurturing. Then I met my husband, saw him interact with his nieces and nephews and I began to wonder if I was wrong. Imagine my surprise, and everyone else’s who knew me, that when I held my daughter in my arms that my entire life, goals, purpose changed. My heart grew more than that silly Grinch’s of four times.

So this Valentine’s, as I was buying a card and chocolates for my husband, I also bought chocolates and cards for my little girls. They are just as important, loved just as much and cherished so deeply in my soul. I think those advertisers could open up a new marketing page if they started promoting towards families and not just couples.

I do wish you a happy Valentine’s Day. I hope that you find the joy of love in life, whether it’s for yourself (who is most important) for your partner or for your family. Love is a blessing and the best part of all, it’s free.

My new book video!!

You’re invited to the premier of my Book Litflix of Love’s Everlasting Song produced by for my newest book. I am so excited because I’ve never had a professional book trailer before and I would be SO grateful if you would post a comment on the link of youtube and then forward on my link to your friends! The more comments I get, the higher up on Internet searches my video goes! I’m striving to get my name out there to as many romance readers as possible and I’m asking for your help. Please, sit back and enjoy my video on Love’s Everlasting Song, comment and then forward on to your friends! If you ever need anything from me just ask and I will be there!

What if?

I will admit, I am a big Grey’s Anatomy fan and last night’s show was based around the lives of my favorite characters if circumstances in their lives had been different. I loved how the writer’s of the show made the characters so different than what we have come to know them. It begs you to think of yourself and the life that you have, the “what if” in your own life.

I will admit that there have been times I have wondered the same thing. One of the big events in my life I have wondered about was when I was going to college at St. Mary’s of the Woods in Indiana. I was studying equine science and was also getting my teaching degree in special ed. I had an amazing room on campus, by myself, the campus itself was that out of a fairytale and my schedule was any academics dream. I truly was living the life. But young love and immaturity got the best of me and after a semester, I dropped out to come back home to the boy I thought I was in love with. After 2 weeks of living with him, we couldn’t stand each other and we broke up. My pride wouldn’t allow me to contact my college and beg to come back.

I definitely wonder about what would have happened if I had stayed and graduated. I was on the collegiate riding team and we were scheduled to compete that spring around the US. I definitely wonder but I definitely don’t regret. I have an amazing life, husband and children that also fall into the fairytale category so life has not dealt me the short end of the stick. I like to think that even if I had stayed and graduated that someway, somehow, I still would have met my wonderful husband and had my girls because at the end of the day, they are my greatest joy, bring out my deepest love and fulfill me more than any degree could.

I hope this weekend finds blessings and miracles that come rapidly into your life and remember, life is meant to be fun, enjoy the journey!